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Losing The Romance
My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.
Three years of courtship and now, two
years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of
it. The reasons for me loving him before, have now transformed
into the cause of all my restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and
extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings, I
yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy.
My husband, is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the
inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has
disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell
him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.
"Why?" he asked, shocked.
"I am tired --, there are no
reasons for everything in the world!" I answered.
He kept silent the whole night, seems
to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times. My
feeling of disappointment only increased. Here was a man who can't
even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him?
And finally he asked me, "What can
I do to change your mind?"
Somebody said it right, it's hard to
change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing
faith in him. Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered, "Here
is the question. If you can answer and convince my heart, I will
change my mind. Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a
mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will
cause your death, will you do it for me?"
He said, "I will give you your
answer tomorrow..."
My hopes just sank by listening to his
response. I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece
of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on
the table that said...
My dear, "I would not pick that
flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons
further.."
This first line was already breaking my
heart. I continued reading.
"When you use the computer you
always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the
screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the
programs. You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save
my legs to rush home to open the door for you. You love traveling but
always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you
the way. You always have the cramps whenever your "good
friend" approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I
can calm the cramps in your tummy. You like to stay indoors, and
I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save
my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom. You
always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your
eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to
clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I
can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy
the sunshine and the beautiful sand... and tell you the color of
flowers, just like the color of the glow on your face... Thus,
my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more
than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die".
My tears fell on the letter, and
blurred the ink of his handwriting and as I continued on reading.
"Now, that you have finished
reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door
for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh
milk".
I rush to pull open the door, and saw
his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle
and loaf of bread... Now I am very sure that no one will ever
love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower
alone...
That's life, and love. When one is
surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one
tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and
dullness. Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky
forms, it has never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring
form. Flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the
surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true
love stands, and that's our life.
Love, not words, win
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